Tag Archives: depression

Feeling the empty

Well, today has been crap. Outwardly it has been a success; we got up, ate something resembling  breakfast, got to playgroup, ate lunch, went outside, ate dinner and did bedtime. How can I possibly say that today was a failure?  … Continue reading

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Timing and shame

Today has got me thinking. Thinking about mental health and how to talk about it to new friends, acquaintances and strangers. I know that the law says you cant discriminate, but real life is not the same as the ideal … Continue reading

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Extract from a letter

Dear X, And what would I want to tell you? I suppose I’d want to tell you that I’m lonely, that I’m depressed, that I’m anxious and that I’m really not well at the moment. Depression has taken hold of … Continue reading

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Square One

I’ve been avoiding the blog. I’ve been avoiding personal posts on Twitter and Facebook. I’ve been avoiding seeing people. Remember that really successful diet I went on? Well, I’ve put all of the weight back on again. I am back … Continue reading

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Thoughts

Not really sure what to write today. I’m on the bus again and someone has REALLY smelly feet. I walked to the bus stop spoiling for a fight. Just hoping someone would give me an excuse to start a fight. … Continue reading

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Despicable

My blog is more anonymous than Twitter or Facebook so I thought I’d post here. I need to get it out. This is a bad one. It had lasted overall week already and it’s getting worse. I hate myself. I … Continue reading

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Understated

I am sitting here on the sofa in my dressing gown. I have not been outside since Saturday. I am not coping I went to the Doctor on Friday. I had seen the signs. I had noticed the lack of … Continue reading

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Confusing day

Today was confusing. I felt really down for no particular reason. The day didn’t start off too well. I was meant to get to the bicycle shop for 9am to get my bike in for a half price service. I … Continue reading

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Hooks and eyelets

Eyelets – opportunities. Things which move my life forward. Achievements. Things that make me smile. I see myself climbing through a series of eyelets, achieving with each one I conquer. Hooks – the things that hold me back. Emotional hooks. … Continue reading

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Lots of things

Well, lots of things seem to have been going on since my last post. I had a week off work as I had a ‘crash’ again. I was getting later and later into work, then one Monday morning I just … Continue reading

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