Author Archives: Lemonpillows


If I look at the big picture, my life is going really well. I’m making progress and I’m managing well.  However, if I’m honest, I feel completely lonely and isolated. I’m feeling the empty.  I know why I feel this … Continue reading

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Big week

So this week has been a big one. And I’m emotionally exhausted. I’m overtired, which means I’m not sleeping properly. I need a nap, but I need a nap buddy for that! It started last week really. It’s 4 months … Continue reading

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On the Truth..

I spoke to a friend last night. One of the friends that I hadn’t been ‘allowed’ to talk to when I was with my ex. It made me think; about who I am, who I want to be, and who … Continue reading

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Feeling the empty

Well, today has been crap. Outwardly it has been a success; we got up, ate something resembling  breakfast, got to playgroup, ate lunch, went outside, ate dinner and did bedtime. How can I possibly say that today was a failure?  … Continue reading

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I still miss you, despite everything…. Continue reading

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Its 1.30am and Im on the sofa eating toast because I cant sleep. Im at the point where Im so exhausted that my vision is blurred, but I still cant sleep. Everything is just going round and round in my … Continue reading

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Timing and shame

Today has got me thinking. Thinking about mental health and how to talk about it to new friends, acquaintances and strangers. I know that the law says you cant discriminate, but real life is not the same as the ideal … Continue reading

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Breaking it down

I feel the need to blog. So thats what Im doing. I havent been here for a long time. People I know read this blog and so its not as easy to be as honest as I have been in … Continue reading

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It all takes time..

I always seem to start my posts with “I’m not really sure what to write really…”. I thought that maybe I should actually post one of these and just see what happens. Things have been going ok for me recently. … Continue reading

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Extract from a letter

Dear X, And what would I want to tell you? I suppose I’d want to tell you that I’m lonely, that I’m depressed, that I’m anxious and that I’m really not well at the moment. Depression has taken hold of … Continue reading

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