I went back to work today, and I was a grumpy bugger all day! I went in late coz, what the hell – I have no manager at the moment and over 10 hours in the flexi bank. I lay in my bed last night trying to get to sleep, but just getting more and more angry at the whole situation. There are parts of the job that will need to be done before the new person actually starts. And I’m guessing I’m expected to do it.
I emailed one of the company managers today to find out what was happening about the Christmas rota and emergency cover, etc. And also to find out what is happening with my job, as it’s this new person’s responsibility to make sure I have one next year. I don’t have a reply yet.
A few things today just really pi**ed me off. I know I’m bitter and still a bit angry about not getting the job, so I kept it to myself: I still have to work for the company. And I know I’m possibly not being totally rational at the moment. But still. They PI**ED ME OFF TODAY!
I don’t hate the woman. I know people who do, but I’ve never seen a bad side to her. But it feels as though I’m just being totally pushed out at the moment. I seem to have no input into anything and I’m not informed of anything. And what the HELL is my previous manager doing?? The service is NOTHING to do with him any more! And he’s giving the new woman LOADS of help. Just like both he and another senior manager gave her loads of help to bloody get the job in the first place. I didn’t ask my previous manager for any assistance because I knew he wanted the other woman to get the job. Anything I’d have put in my presentation and she hadn’t, he would have passed on to her.
So I’ve been really grumpy today. I was very nice to everyone and didn’t bitch or moan or blank anyone. But I really just wanted to scream and shout and slap someone. I have NO IDEA currently where my responsibilities lie. What support I’m supposed to be giving to the agents; what I’m supposed to be covering. If my previous manager keeps wanting to stick his nose in (only when he feels like it though – not when it’s a task he doesn’t like to do), then why bother covering anything for them at all??
I’m PI**ED OFF. And I have a MAJOR grump on. All of this, plus a company rebrand that makes me sounds a completely unemployable welfare case and I’m seriously considering a new job. At this rate, I’ll be unemployed come March anyway.