Choices..

It’s late. And I’m still up..And thinking. I’m thinking about..well..friends. People who, for one reason or another I’ve lost contact with. During my ‘lost years’. After university.

You see, I never wanted to be a burden on anyone. Didn’t want to saddle them with my woes. And retreated into myself.

I miss what I had with those people. And though I know I can never go back, and that people change, I often think about them.. Wonder how they are doing. But I’m scared to get in contact again.. I don’t know whether contact would even be welcomed again.. And that makes me sad. I don’t know if I have the guts to contact one of them. And the other I’ve tried to contact, but had no reply.(i guess that sends its own message) But for me, though I hate the word, I don’t feel like I’ve had ‘closure’ with these people..

Choices.. Am I strong enough to contact them and face the rejection? And what do I want from them? Maybe I just want to know that they don’t hate me. But is that just selfish?? I don’t know. *sigh*

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6 Responses to Choices..

  1. anxious says:

    It’s a tricky one. The longer you leave it, the more awkward you feel about it.

    Personally, I’m always delighted to hear from old friends and will always reply.

    But then you get into the “we should meet up” and then it never happens and then you feel guilty… ach, who knows?

    Think about how you will feel if they don’t reply, decide if you can deal with it or not and base your decision on that, I guess.

  2. saesnes says:

    Oh I know how you feel! I’ve lost touch with loads of people & mean, almost on a daily basis, to contact them but….I agree with anxious about feeling awkward.

    I suppose one should just jump in & go for it – it’s hard though.

  3. An old friend says:

    I think getting in touch with old friends is a good thing.

  4. Dad says:

    Hi Sweet,
    Dont be anxious or nervous or afraid of the response. You will never find out if you do not ask. If they do not respond or respond in the negative then it is their loss not yours.
    Read the comments again from your fellow bloggers, You are a nice, caring thoughtful person and funny to boot, so just go for it.
    ps: do not hurt penelope plum punto anymore as she needs to last and pebble beaches are not good for her, if you want to do the pebble bit you need a quad bike.
    Luv u babe. X

  5. I think getting in touch with old friends can be great and maturity often helps with smoothing over the cracks! There might be all sorts of reasons why the first person didn’t respond, but it strikes me their loss is the greater.

    I guess there is no right answer. Confidence is always a problem but if people don’t respond then it doesn’t actually mean it’s anything personal, even if it may feel that way. Not everyone is as discerning as your blog readers, who I reckon rate you quite highly…

    Oh and your dad sounds really nice and very wise!

  6. peekie68 says:

    True friendship is easily picked up again – if its meant to be they will reply if not as dad says its their loss not yours.

    Follow your heart and go with your gut reaction in life, that way you cant go far wrong. Also remember new friends can become true friends too. :)

    xx

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