Two weeks and counting

Right. So I’m back. There has been so much I’ve wanted to write about, but now I have my blog back, I don’t think I can.

Today has been a pretty mundane effort at living. I didn’t get enough sleep last night and I’m just feeling really flat. It was a huge effort not to burst out crying on the train home to be honest. Only two more weeks and I go home for a while. I can get away from all of this. Change my routine. Get some puppy cuddles. And see my friends.

I do miss my friends. Vanessa, Sarah and JP especially. I’m gritting my teeth and just trying to make it through until Christmas. I’ll have a clearer head after then. Be able to make some decisions about where I’m going and what I’m going to do.

I’ve managed to get myself out the past two weekends. Different big towns nearby. Still not got much Christmas shopping done though. I’m feeling kinda bereft of unique ideas this year. *sigh*

I’m ok, really. I think I’m just tired and a bit fed up today. It’s one of those days when there doesn’t seem to be any point in anything. It’s just routine. Get up, go to work, come home, eat something, have shower, go to bed. Repeat till the weekend. Kinda thing. I’ll go to bed early, have a good cry and feel sorry for myself, then I’ll wake up fine in the morning. And it will be one day closer to going away.

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5 Responses to Two weeks and counting

  1. You’ve made some huge changes this year – sounds like you’re knackered! Be kind to yourself, yeah?

  2. jj says:

    testing 1 2

  3. jj says:

    im a pc novice so i hope u get this. i have just read some of your entries – thankyou! its the 2nd blog i have ever read!! its cool 2 read someones personal feelings/thoughts even though they are a complete stranger! t.b.c.

  4. jj says:

    i came across your site by doing a search with the word “demotivation”. i have now been inspired to have a go at writting my own online diary!! i wanted some tips on motivation because i have spent my day being shite when i should b doing open university study. perhaps it was some kind of divine intervention that made me find your site which has now given me a spark and some invigoration.
    reguarding your empty weekends. try a young ramblers group for scenic walks or your local wildlife trust 4 some easy work on a nature reserve. both activities will involve meeting interesting people, visiting numerous parts of Britons green and pleasant land also there are usually public houses involved! you can help preserve the habitat 4 those banging bunnies!
    good luck duck an’ chin up.

  5. Vanessa says:

    I say do boxing. I always feel better when I thrash the fucking daylights out of an imaginary face before me.


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